Tuesday, April 24, 2012
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Saturday, April 21, 2012
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Friday, April 20, 2012
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Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Knowing how much time I sit at the computer studying and all those others distractions right at my fingertips, I try to keep my body a little more active. Something tells me the movement from hand to mouth isn't quite enough, so I try to take little breaks from the computer to dance. So if you drive by and see some crazy woman in my study flailing her arms, just know that I am replacing that trip to the kitchen for food with a little Motown movement. Something I really wish I could do in public.
Don't you sometimes wish that when a fun song to dance to comes on the intercom in the grocery store that we could all break into a dance? I think this world would be a better place if we could just start dancing at random times. It would even be more fun if we all knew the same dance moves. Kind of like daily flash mobs everywhere we go just like the movie Enchanted in Central Park. I'm going to call up a Presidential candidate and suggest it as a campaign promise.
Posted by Tanya at 2:19 PM
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Same way with life. When I get something right the first time, there isn't that gut-retching feeling that comes with the regret resulting in a lesson not soon forgotten. Thank goodness life is like my statistics class. My professor lets us keep retaking assignments and quizzes until we get the score that we want, and in the process, I understand it a whole lot more. A really gifted teacher lets us learn from our experience in the same way.
Just try it. Make a big mistake and then see how much deeper the learning experience is rather than when you get it right the first time. Trust me, I should know.
Posted by Tanya at 9:23 AM
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
As I think about what seems like an insignificant event in my life, I realize that at that moment I was manifesting a problem that would continually hold me back. You see, I know that what should have been an assignment that was meant to help me increase my vocabulary in Civics and be useful if I ever wanted to have an informed and intellectual discussion on politics (I don't, so I'm safe there), just became an exercise in the distraction of trying to write it perfectly and not even paying attention to the definitions.
That scenario has continued to play out in my life. Wanting to have something perfect, I can miss out on the really important part of the assignment in my home. Like when I tried my biannual attempt at FHE (that stands for Family Home Evening not Family's Heated Exchange) In wanting it picture perfect (and anyone who knows the sarcastic brood I have harvested will attest to the long shot that was), I missed the whole purpose of having FHE. In the first place, it wasn't to have a perfectly orchestrated family night but to find more love and connectedness as we learn correct principles. Same thing goes for making an elaborate celebration for a holiday. It isn't about having the perfect pinterest creation (although that can be a fun little add on), it is about togetherness and love. Too much worry about making it perfect can distract me from the real definition of a family, just like in my Civics class.
Christ said that we should be perfect like He is perfect, but I think he was talking about having perfect love. He didn't give the disciples a cute, perfect handout or a perfect, elaborate table setting at the last supper; He washed their feet thus demonstrating the perfect definition of love.
Posted by Tanya at 2:08 PM
I find that true for my life. I realize that I can imagine doing something so vividly that later I don't really know if I actually did it or not. Like all the thank you notes that I have pictured myself doing, later I don't know whether or not I actually wrote and sent them and so I am troubled about sending one because for all I know I will duplicate the note and guarantee my crazy diagnosis. And if the benefits for imagining and actually doing are the same, then just know if you didn't get that note, I have still reaped the reward. There, that should make you happy.
It is that way with this blog. Sometimes I don't know the difference between whether I just thought about writing something and when I actually wrote about it. I know I've said this before, but because I am too lazy to read back and find out for sure, I will just go ahead and re post or post a thought for the first time, whatever it is. Just know that I am not crazy but just a vivid imaginator (not really a word but if Arnold can be the terminator, then why not?) who can con myself into thinking I already did something or not. Confused? Welcome to my world. Just know that if I repeat myself, there is a valid reason and I am not as clueless as I appear. Let's just pretend.
Posted by Tanya at 8:08 AM
Saturday, April 7, 2012
The very next day after making that decision to myself, I got an email from Time Out For Women about the video contest "Pretty Darn Funny." Immediately I realized that this was a serious manifestations of what I wanted, and I knew right away that I needed to seize the opportunity. I have learned from sad experience that if I don't take advantage of opportunities that they won't keep coming. So right away I made my video.
But then I chickened out and kept thinking I needed to perfect the video or at least have a face lift before filming. Well, as often happens with me, I got distracted and for a few weeks ignored the opportunity. It wasn't until the last couple of days left until the deadline to enter did I just boldly send in the video without looking at it again because I knew I wouldn't think it was perfect enough. (perfectionism holds me back continutally!)
Since I was far behind in any voting, I knew that I had to advertize myself. Again, something that was beyond my comfort zone. Well I did it without worrying about what people would think because I knew that it was just a little something I was meant to do. It was heartwarming to realize how many people would help me. It was something I really didn't believe I deserved to be supported in.
It really doesn't matter if I win, although I would like to give the trip to one of the people that has been so supportive. The important thing that came from this little experience is that I decided what I wanted, followed my heart and did something that was a little risky. I think that I am now healed from the terrible wound of my 7th grade election loss (heck, I didn't even get in the finals!).
Posted by Tanya at 1:20 AM
Friday, April 6, 2012
One such expert friend" of mine is a friend from college. Thank heavens for facebook and blogs that can keep us in touch. Anyway, for me she is such an expert friend. I recently read on her blog how she has been running for 5 miles a day and isn't sore. Mind you, she is my age and so I can't use age as an excuse for running that long. Besides, I realized that if I can swim laps for an hour and do Zumba also for an hour, I should be able to run for an hour, which at 5 miles per hour is 5 miles. (Gee, good for me, I can do math a little better than the You Tube video about the husband aaking his wife how long it takes to go 80 miles driving at 80 miles per hour. See video at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qhm7-LEBznk
So today I did it. It felt good and I am ever so grateful for inspiring friends that push me beyond what I think I can do. Thanks Lisa.
If you also want to be inspired by Lisa's Daughter, I suggest you watch her touching video on You Tube
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Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Today I especially had a great nugget of truth come my way. I ran into an old friend and she shared something profound. We were talking about how some of the most painful experiences can be so beneficial, and she told me about an meeting that Mitt Romney had with President Hinckley when he decided to run for office four years ago. Mitt said that Pres. Hinckley told him that if he won the election, it would be a great experience. He said that if he lost the election, it would also be a great experience. It is good to remember that even if things don't turn out the way we want them to that it can be a good experience.
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