Yesterday in Sunday School the teacher asked what sins we would give up to become a better person. I appreciated what someone in our class said about the fact that sometimes it isn't a big sin we need to give up but just a little thing such as how we use our time. Timely because I had been pondering all weekend about using more of my time to try and make a difference instead of the insignificant time wasters I often engage in. That ultimately means that I have to give up something so I have more time for something better.
Yes, I crave order and when things get too disorganized, it is dangerous for me. This is the tricky though because just like it is uncomfortable for me to have too little order, trying to have too much order is equally dangerous. Balance is always key. So my life-long quest is to achieve just enough order to stay sane but not get too obsessive and become OCD. Right now, I just created enough order that I am better able to relax and let my ideas flow as I type. I feel peace and as I have said so many times before, it is the feelings of peace that help me know that I am in a good place but honestly it doesn't have to be the conditions around me that create that peace. It is something I can generate from within. With God's help.