Monday, February 27, 2012
Interesting analogy that in order to float, I have to spread my arm and legs wide in what seems like a vulnerable position, and I relax and trust that I will stay afloat (it helps to have a higher percent of body fat than muscle--way to go Tanya). Great symbolism that I am also looking Heavenward. I am going to take more time to do that not only after a hard swim but during anything that it is hard. Be still and know that He is God and that he will help ease my burdens and make them light (without having to make me fat).
Posted by Tanya at 9:28 AM
Sunday, February 26, 2012
It is interesting (for me anyway--you might have more excitement in your life) how I have been guilty of going to an opposite extreme to try and create balance, but in doing so I am personally out of balance. This would demonstrate my weakness of trying to fix someone else instead of being the best I can be and find my own personal best self through a healthy balance of fun and spiritual. How about spiritually fun?
Posted by Tanya at 4:16 PM
Saturday, February 25, 2012
This reminds me of a time in grade school when I was struggling with some difficulties and quite depressed. I remember coming home from school and wanting to read the comics labeled, "laugh it off." I think I was on to something then. I guess I knew how therapeutic a good laugh could be. I am just grateful I didn't know about drugs back then. I might have been tempted to use them to dull the pain. I am glad all I had were those comics and was able to start a good habit of how to deal with painful emotions. I want to get better at noticing what is funny, especially about me. That won't be a difficult search.
Posted by Tanya at 9:05 AM
Friday, February 24, 2012
It is true. I know that when I feel like I am carrying heavy guilt, it is tempting to go try to throw that guilt on someone else, blaming them by calling them judgmental and believing that they are the source of pain instead of my personal choices that have created the guilt. I have certainly felt like I have also been on the receiving end, being accused of being judgmental or responsible when someone feels guilty for something they don't want to take responsibility for.
The only cure for guilt is to take responsibility for what created my self-imposed guilt and to fix that. Blaming others and especially calling someone judgmental is really trying to transfer the self judgment from guilt that is the natural consequence of violating what is truly right for me. It is okay for me to judge myself as being out of line, and then can be so healing as I take responsibility and repent. Judging or blaming others won't lead me to the source of all healing.
Posted by Tanya at 10:19 AM
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
The garbage truck isn't my only gift of a second chance. Thank heavens that people in my life give me a second, third, fourth, five... chances. And especially glad my Heavenly Father does too. I have a lot of garbage.
Posted by Tanya at 12:50 AM
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Anyway, at first I thought I only had two choices. 1. Go home and get my glasses or 2. Just feel my way to class and sit there with a blank stare on my face. Then I had a creative thought. Now this is newsworthy because I usually don't think out of the box very often. So, drum roll please...
I thought, "I bet there are reading glasses in the lost and found." There were and they even matched my outfit! TENDER MERCY! So I wore them for the rest of church and wondered who was looking at me thinking that they had a pair just like the glasses I have on that they had misplaced. Well, if you did then just know they are back in the lost and found; and know that I came home feeling a little more creative at problem solving. The blessings of church attendance.
Posted by Tanya at 2:42 PM
Friday, February 17, 2012
Well, like they say in my research methods and statistics classes, tests have to be replicated to be valid. I have managed to repeat my test of going on and off of healthy eating and now I can say conclusively that it just doesn't work for me to eat a lot of sweet stuff (tried to make that sound intelligent even though it really was a no brainer). It affects my body and how I feel emotionally. It also affects my relationships because my family gets a little embarrassed when I am outside the cupcake store begging.
Doing anything that is unhealthy is a slippery slope. At first just a few bites of cake doesn't seem that big of a deal. Okay a slice is still okay. A bigger slice isn't that bad. I'll stop at eating half the cake, and then before I know it I am licking crumbs off of a empty plate. Now you know why I haven't been posting. I've been doing what Marie Antoinette suggested.
Posted by Tanya at 10:41 AM
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Posted by Tanya at 12:15 PM
Friday, February 3, 2012
Posted by Tanya at 11:27 AM
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Posted by Tanya at 11:25 PM