The Light that shines through the dakness

I am not trying to compare myself to Joseph Smith, but today I realized that in the Doctrine and Covenants that some of the most moving inspiration to Joseph came at his darkest hours. I want to share a portion of the tender mercies that I have received and declare that God is always there in our darkest hours.

The other night after Kev's public apology, this saintly women, Pamela Atkinson, who is the Mother Theresa of Utah, was the first one there to hug and console me. As I looked into her eyes and saw and felt her deep love, compassion, and understanding, I wept as I felt like I was truly in the presence of Christ-like love. I know that she is not one to condone sin and indiscretion, but she is truly one to love the sinner, and aren't we all sinners to some degree? I know I am.

I am so grateful to have locked into my memory the love that I witnessed in Pamela Atkinson's eyes because she has helped me focus on Christ-Like love of instead of the hateful comments anonymously made on the internet that reveal their own misery. Oh what a great world this would be if everyone has the compassion and love that Pamela Atkinson exhibits. Pamela, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I want to be more like you, and in so doing I will be more like my Savior.

In the aftermath of this public disclosure, it has also been emotional to receive an outpouring of love and support, and it has taken my appreciation for family and friends to a whole new level. To all those who have prayed for us, sent messages and love, thank you. It means so much to me. You have inspired me to be a better person.

I have always had a deep and abiding testimony that our Heavenly Father and Savior, Jesus Christ can make something good out of everything that is difficult. I know that when I trust my Heavenly Father and focus on what I can learn from and am grateful for in any situation then I heal and grow. Becoming a victim and being revengeful is never healing.